Random Thoughts

The final insult, the late humiliation one could receive from the son, the uncle from his nephew who despise him for his financial situation when he has finally spoken about the loan. It does not matter if the son or the nephew is polite, whether if the son or nephew is willing to help. But to give him the opportunity to feel sympathy if not to say condescending things would be enough. But the fact is that he has not spoken. The nephew or the son remembers photos they have taken together. Photos of him when he was a young man and he is a baby, when he is a young boy and he is in his late twenties. The wedding, his wedding, the banquet hall (should I give the name?) of another four couples all marrying on the same day. No, they aren't friends, or related, it was an auspicious date, an auspicious day they said. Perhaps they all went to the same fortune teller. But it was a wedding nonetheless. To hear about his financial problem, or anyone of them (from that side of the family). I would say poverty, but financial issues plague them since, perhaps when their father started working in the bank, as a young man, and died leaving a cup of undrank hot Milo on the table, unmedically, he was told it was the phlegm in the lung, choked on a phlegm, he was told in the morning, he was told again, when his mother recounts, repeats the incident at different intervals of his life a la Robbe-Grillet, with different details. It is not just the difference in each repetition, but also the difference in the state of mind of the listener, accorded by age, mood et. al. that the story the kitchen, the night he slept as an adolescent and the man who is supposed to drink the cup of milo went to the hospital instead. He was not told which hospital, but he is sure that the it was the same hospital his wife passed away about twenty years later. I wanted to write the hospital that took her life. But doctors should not worry that this would be another accusation of them overcharging or another act of negligence, how I sympathise how mundane they live although some drama series portray otherwise, doctors can believe I am like many other jealous of you, of your salary, but doctors this is not even about you.  This medical idiot who told me, when she was relapsing, that she was reacting to my presence. Motherfucker, with Hong Kong accent English told me as calmly, as if to tell me I interrupted his break, he had to take a long walk from his desk to the ward to respond to my call. So the son of this man who left a cup of Milo unfinished, one of the many sons, had two kids and a flat with so many statues of Buddha. I have lesser interest in the religion than the class position, the cultural position, or more generally the cultural position it signifies. He was the man that did the drawing of the Goddess of Mercy that I erased a few lines and added mine so that it will look as if I am the one who did the drawing, to add to the realism, and as a matter of fact, I still feel no shame, about this for I am sure it was an act of indolence, of being lazy to draw than the lack of ability to, he was one of my drawing teacher, I did not how to contextualised it as appropriateion, I laughed at him when he was turning bald, or rather losing hair, thinning hair, now this is happening to me. I remember his sister telling me the two times he was robbed, he was the best looking and trendiest amongst her brothers. I remember he was the one who told me babies cry at birth because, according to the Buddhist teaching, they know they are born to suffer. But it is not as if he is dead now, it is just a belated reflection and memory of a person after hearing about what happened few days ago.