Was I like him, before? - Tomás Gutiérrez Alea

“Was I like him, before? It’s possible. Although it may destroy me, this revolution is my revenge against the stupid Cuban bourgeoisie, against idiots like Pablo. I realise that Pablo isn’t Pablo. It’s my own life. Everything I don’t want to be. It’s good to see them leave. Just as if I threw them up. I remain lucid. It’s a disagreeable lucidity, empty. I know what’s happening to me but I can’t avoid it. He, Laura, everybody.” - Tomás Gutiérrez Alea